W.I.N. (What Is Normal)

What is normal? A question that people may ask themselves at somepoint in their life. And by society's standards, anything out of the ordinary is not normal. But when you think about it, their's no such thing as "normal" and I hate it when people use that term. Think about it, their is no other person on this planet like you, you're different, your personality, likes, dislikes, it's all different. Perhaps you like rap, while I like symphonic rock. Liking rap is not a "weird" style of be into, it's just a preference. No one will ever look like me, nor will anyon ever look like you, or be you. Whether you're a cripple, richest person on Earth, or the poorest, we are all someone. Many say I'm into "weird" things, I suffer from depression, used to be suicidal and confused, but I stepped up and accepted me for who I am, and now I am devoted to helping others in any way or form, to help them realize they are their own unique individual and their will never be someone like them ever again. We all have feelings, and want to fit in, and their are ways to do it if people would stop for one moment of the day, and see all the remarkable people in this world, and how they have their purpose. If everyone did that, I believe slowly but surely, people can get along, and live without judging others. We all die one day, and will never be seen or heard from again on this planet, so take advantage of it, get to know people, and see what they have to offer.

Easter

Just had to put that I had an amazing Easter with my dad's birth mother's family whom he found 2 years ago after 20 years of searching. Their family is amazing, and my dad's mother's husband is probably one of the most interesting people I will ever know, he's 71 but still looks like he's in his early 60's, very healthy and active, and so many interesting stories to tell, so I thank him for that, and the whole family for welcoming us.

Shame Movie

Just have to say that Shame is a brilliant movie that makes you think that their really are people out there with a sex addiction. But sadly today's society views it as dirty, and prefers to hush it all up. But a sex addiction should be taken as seriously as a person with a drug or alcohal addiction. In all their own way all addiction are dirty, but all three need treatment. It may not seem so but a sex addiction can interfere and possibly ruin people's lives. Society really should treat it like any other addiction instead of hushing it up and open to talk about violence or other addictions willingly.

Prometheus "Shavid"

So I was reading into the Prometheus movie, and found a lot of controversy about David's "admiration" with Elizabeth. The winning side in the arguement is that David is starting to "feel" something towards Elizabeth. My opinion, is it's  big MAYBE David could or is starting to feel something for Elizabeth. I say that because of his actions in the movie. When the crew woke up David was by her side the whole time while she was barfing, calming her, and he didn't check on the others even though they were also barfing. Even before they woke up, he would watch her dreams, and I'm assuming he watched no one elses. After her c-section, when she stumbled into the room Weyland was in, David got up quickly and went over to her and put his coat around her and helped sit her down, which he didn't have to do considering the fact other people were in the room and would have taken care of her. And later we find out he carried Elizabeth's cross necklace, which is unusual, especially the time  he carried it, on a dangerous journey, knowing what might happen. After the ship crashed crashed, he contacter her, telling her he was afraid she was dead, and seemed highly relieved she was alright. To me David is starting to feel emotions, he just doesn't know how to react about them. He says he doesn't know what want is, but he seems to feel it, as he stated he'd like to see Weyland die so he can be free. He stated also that he was disappointed in his creater, which is also a feeling. Then when he stated he was afraid Elizabeth wasn't alive, to me it shows that he does feel, if he cared so much for her well-being. So to me, he is starting to feel something for Elizabeth. Plus he started calling her by her first name, and not the others. So it seems he feels, but is unaware of it, nor doesn't know how to respond to it. And to me one reason he could be "feeling" something for her is that she never teased him or rubbed it in in a rude manner about him being not human. So a "Shavid" possibility? Perhaps so.

Shame

Seems like yesterday, 
where you went out of the door. 
Seems that you ran away, 
from the fear inside your heart. 
You closed your fragile eyes, 
you cannot see the tears I cry. 
Oh you. 
I never realized, 
that everything has gone to end. 
I try to understand, 
why's that worn inside your heart. 
You hurt me deep inside, 
I cannot see the truth you hide. 
From me. 

Shame, within your eyes. 
Reminds me why I'm here. 
Your words can bring me down, 
cause you will never feel what I felt. 
Pain inside my soul, reminds me what you've done. 
The world is standing still, 
cause you will never see, what I see. 
Cause you will never feel, what I feel. 
Cause you will never see, what I see. 

I should be strong enough, but I'm weaker then before. 
I will be free one day, when you let go my heart of bless. 
I hope that it won't break, cause it's not yet the time for me, 
to die. 
I leave the past behind, I don't look back on all my dreams. 
And now I understand, why's that worn inside your heart. 
The pain is blown away and now I see the truth you hide, 
from me. 

I see this loyalty in you. 
Can smell the perfume on the trail. 
I'm feeling bad, my soul is bruised. 
I feel this honesty in you, I never thought that this is true. 
But now I know what love can do. 

Shame, within your eyes. 
Reminds me why I'm here. 
Your words can bring me down, 
cause you will never feel what I felt. 
Pain inside my soul, reminds me what you've done. 
The world is standing still, 
cause you will never see, what I see.

Expensive

It's official, the state I live in is the most expensive state in the US..California. I mean Jesus! Lowering pay, raising prices, not enough jobs. Our government must really be on crack. Just because we're the most populated state does't mean government has to take advantage of that. Instead of the Golden State it's more like the State of Greed. Whoever moves here must really be out of their mind. I wanna go live in Washinton state..yup, they're way cheaper, don't take taxes out of your paycheck, and all in all a friendlier, and much more beautiful state. I really wish I could do something..

Living Life

All I can say is enjoy life to it's fullest. Sure, you have disagreements with people, but arguing and holding grudges never gets you anywhere. I'm still trying to figure out what people get out of that. Instead of living your life in negative feelings, try to reconnect with that person, talk things out. People are often surpised how good it turns out once they settle on something, then they wonder why they didn't do it before. Live life as happily as possible, for all you know that person you're angry at, or you yourself could end up dying tomorrow in a car accident (although I hope not). Don't live life with such negativity.